Back to School – Summer Style

I finally took a leap and went back to school this summer.  I only have an Associates degree and never finished getting my Bachelors.  I’ve had my professional position and career for almost 16 years so obviously, my employer(s) didn’t / don’t mind.  It is more for self satisfaction.  I can’t get over the fact that I don’t have this one piece of paper that says I have a Bachelors in blah-blah-blah.  Instead, I am going to stress myself out and possibly put myself in debt for said piece of paper.  This isn’t my first attempt…I attempted to go back to school in 2012, but the whole moving process derailed me and then bam!  Time flew on by and here I am, 3 years later, finally here and doing it.

I was overly ambitious at first, taking 3 classes in the summer.  Summer sessions are only 8 weeks in duration so it’s much double time.  I decided to drop one before the deadline because I realized I wouldn’t be able to spend quality time with my girls while they were off if I kept on with the 3 classes.  Just in the 2nd week now and I’m thinking maybe I should have dropped 2 and just stuck to 1!  It’s pretty intense, y’all.  Why?

I (am):

A) OLD.

B) haven’t been to school since 2004.

C) now have 3 kids all home for the summer.

D) “single-momming” it for the most part since pDaddy took a job out of state.

E)  still working full time from home.

F) OLD (did I say that already? I’m going senile too, I guess).

G) going back to point “D”.  “single-momming” it is no joke.  I don’t know how you real single moms/miiitary wives handle it…Hubby came home for a weekend after a month and I was overcome with joy and chores for him to do!  ahahahah  Seriously though, I had to add some of his chores (mowing the lawn, etc.) to my already long list PLUS school.   I think I’m a glutton for punishment.

WHY else would I be getting all anxious and stressed?

I am OVERLY analytical by nature.  I mean, it is my profession as well (systems analyst), but throwing multiple choice questions at me has me in an anxiety ridden state.  I end up finding the “correct” answer in at least 2 of the options because I could argue both (or more) sides of said options.  I have been in a position to “think outside of the box” – to find a way to go around the problem/solution.  I have been used to questioning requirements and see if I can find loop holes and faults.  i know how to find a way to “break” something when I have to dual role as a systems analyst and tester.

pDaddy and my parents always said I should have been a lawyer, but as I’m studying Business “Legalese” this semester where in the first 3 chapters, we study different kinds of laws and courts of law, etc…I don’t know.  Even when there is a final answer, I don’t find it finite.  It’s not like Math – where 1+1 = 2 (let’s not start on Common Core now).  I mean really, I like things cut and dry.  Multiple Choice answers make me stressed out and anxious.  At least give me an “if – then” statement or condition or have a viable way to argue my answer choice instead of giving me a red X when I choose the “wrong” one.  UGH. Where’s my wine!?!?!

ANYWHHHAAAYYY…let me get off my school soapbox for a minute and just do some catching up…

I’m debating on whether or not to fully resurrect this blog or create just a whole new one entirely.  I can’t even think of a new site name or new “moniker” so I guess I’m answering my own question and sticking to this for now.

Brief run down on me…

In the past year or so, I’ve:

  • taken a liking to Zumba so I’m also trying to keep that on the schedule whilst adjusting to not having pDaddy working from home.  This means that I can’t get my Zumba on if I am inundated with work-work and/ school-work nor can I go if any of the girls are sick b/c I can’t just leave them with pDaddy anymore.  I feel my inner diva comes out when in Zumba.
  • run the best race I have in a LONG time – injury free too!  Still over 2 minutes slower than my best, but I will take slow over injury! This was also over a month ago :(  Best race in 2 years and I haven’t really run since.  pDaddy took his out of state job shortly (monday after my saturday race) after that.  I should just run in the gym on a treadmill, but that goes in line w/girls not being sick and poor Shrimpie was sick w/a fever for a full week and then almost 2 weeks after that on and off.
  • come into my own in my Bullet Journal.  It’s not the original way, but it works for me and is pretty here and there ;)
  • spent WAY too much on craft / art / stationery supplies.  I don’t even want to calculate.  Nope, not going to happen.
  • slowly been getting into “plannering” and all the inks and planner stamps that come with it.
  • not spent much in the realm of make-up/beauty products *ANGELS sing*…not that I’ve saved tho :( That spending got diverted to craft stuff mentioned above.
  • seen one of the most beautiful places in the world – El Nido, Palawan Philippines when we went to the Philippines back in February for pDaddy’s cousin’s wedding and grandma’s 90th birthday celebration/reunion. Got to also swim with sea turtles which was also pretty amazing!
  • discovered new music.  LOVE “Hot Sardines“.  No shame in my game admitting that I discovered them through the Starbucks app.  Glad the world is finally catching up to “PMJ” and I also love “Us the Duo“.  What an amazingly, talented couple AND she’s Filipina to boot ;)  Holler (wait, do all the cool kids still say that?  totally aged myself again, me thinks).
  • made new friends.
  • gained weight, lost weight, gained weight, lost weight, lather, rinse, repeat.
  • started to get comfortable in my own skin even with the weight fluctuation.  I mean, I wish I still looked like I did back in the early 2000s, but hey, I can sit here and argue, I had 3 kids since then, etc…Fact of the matter is, yes, I do have 3 kids and the last one made my stomach a luxury townhouse  building, but I wouldn’t change it for the world.

A whole slew of other things have been going on as well, but let’s stop there for now.

Play-Noh

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Sofia the First and my Shrimpie

I have a love/hate relationship with Play-Doh or any kind of clay for that matter (it’s a close second to glitter).  I know it helps our children build their imaginations and creativity and I get all that.  I loved Gumby and Pokey and had fun with Play-Doh back in my day.  I just HATE the mess of it all now.

My 4 year old is obsessed with Play-Doh right now and it’s partially our fault for showing her some You Tube video with all different Play-Doh type sets and activities, etc.  You see that face over there?  She LOVES her Play-Doh.  She has a few TRU gift cards and she chose this Sofia one and the other is the Frozen set.

Maybe it’s because of all these sets now – that can make anything from flowers to ice cream to even a dental impression- all those molds pop out extra tid-bits of clay goodness everywhere whereas back in my day…Back in MY day, we just rolled them and shaped them with our hands and cut them with plastic knives aIMG_3873nd used other things for molds, etc., but nothing too intricate to leave small pieces everywhere.  I remember I didn’t even want to mix colors together because they would get all smooshed together, but these days, they encourage that – make a burger with lettuce, tomatoes, etc!  make an ice cream sundae with extra toppings!  make a cupcake with frosting and sprinkles! make pretty flowers of all different colors!

I have to say though,when she gets going, she is so focused and it gives me joy watching her so excited and even interactive – like she’s story telling.  It doesn’t, however, make me happy to see my already cramped craft table (and surrounding chairs and floor area) looking like this…Me thinks we need to get another kiddie table up in here, up in here.

Take the good with the bad, I guess :)  Could be worse, I know.

FOCUS

IMG_3859 My mind is anywhere and everywhere lately, it seems.  Being a WAHM juggling school activities, schedule, work (!!!!), mommy duties, wifey duties, house to-do’s and responsibilities does that to a person.  Though I’ve adopted the Bullet Journal way of organizing my life, I still find it hard to find time to blog.  I realized that it’s because, maybe, I never put that as an action item in my Bullet Journal.  So alas, I put it on there!

So, here I am, again…attempting to blog.  I wanted to actually get into it again with joining NaBloPoMo, but, I was sick the first weekend of November and that was that.  It’s pretty difficult to blog when all your body wants to do is get sucked in by the couch and it’s not even the most comfortable of couches.

But, I am here now and that’s all that matters.

I’m not sure where I want this blog to go anymore.  It started as an online journal type of thing documenting my girls’ lives, then went into some working out and healthy eating entries (both of which are seriously lacking in my life as of late) and even tidbits of fashion and beauty.  Like I said, my mind is everywhere.  I may keep it that way and just write whatever’s in my fancy for the day.  Do I really want to keep focus on just one topic on my blog?  Hmmm…not at the moment, but yet, I’m not sure where to go.  It’s hard to pick up where you left off when the last post was from months ago.

I stopped posting not because I didn’t want to, but more because I fell behind and the longer I fell behind, the harder it was for me to figure out where to pick up from.  So today?  I’m going to start with FOCUS (4 paragraphs later).  I really need to do that in order to get better at everything I need to do.

The way I’ve been trying to get my FOCUS On is by using the Bullet Journal and believe me, it has helped me and then some.  I always have had a planner and multiple calendars (still have a few dry erase ones for the family to see easily), but I found myself with multiple planners and post-it notes everywhere.  The Bullet Journal has changed my life and I’ve even convinced my mom and sister to get in on the action.

IMG_3853Besides the Bullet Journal, I’ve caught myself doodling like back in all my school days (elementary, high school and college – actually even work).  I’ve always felt like it was therapeutic and if not for MissZoot, I never would have known that there’s actually another term for it besides doodling…Apparently, it’s all the rage these days (maybe?  maybe not? ;) ).  The term is “zentangle” or “zendoodle” or what-have-you.  I like “zendoodle“.  It does get me into a zen state and to me, it’s still doodling.  I don’t know if there’s a definitive definition for either, but…Anyway, there are Pinterest boards galore and books and classes you can take.  I ran into this lady’s page via Pinterest and think it’s pretty darn awesome that she’s made some downloadble prints of patterns you can use in these doodles (thank Ms. Emily!).

Ahhh…Bullet Journal-ing and ZenDoodling – feeding my addiction to office supplies: pens, notebooks, papers, pretty colors of all of the above and washi tape too (that’s another one that i didn’t know had a name…I always saw it as “paper tape” or “tape ruban” or something).  And on that note, I need to shift my focus to clearing and organizing my craft area that houses all of these said supplies.

What do you do to keep your FOCUS in you line of sight?

Softball Season

Wow, softball season is amongst us and I haven’t posted since even before basketball season. Maybe I will do catchup posts at a later point in time? Hmmm…

Anywho, sitting here, at the softball field, I’m reminded that I love the beauty of spring, but detest allergies. Between the kids fun run at the track last night and now sitting here for a softball game, I’m already exhausted from sneezing and blowing my nose. My girls are lucky I love them. Hehe

The big 2 play for the same softball team this year and I love watching how they look out for each other – especially Beans. During practice, when they have to run laps, she runs alongside Razz (even though she runs faster) to make sure her asthmatic sister will be ok.

Shrimp loves to sleep in so she is home still sleeping and that is fine by me. Trying to keep her occupied during a game involves me running around after her to stop her from going to the playground. That little one man, she is something else! She’s lucky I love her too. Hehehe

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WW: Proud of My Gals!

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at the Farm standing with their school scarecrow.

We had Parent Teacher Conferences last night and I am so SUPER DUPER PROUD of our Beans and Razz.  All glowing praises from their respective teachers!  Razz is pretty much done with the Kinder curriculum (after the first quarter) and her teacher now has to challenge her for the rest of the year.  Beans is excelling all around as well.  It was SO hard for me to contain my smile.

I wonder though, is it wrong to gloat?  That paragraph up there was going to be my FB status.  Then, I thought, is that ok?  Is that frowned upon?  Is it too show-offy?

My FB friends are people I know in real life with the exception of 2 bloggers, but I’ve “known” them via blogs since I was pregnant with Beans (who will be 8 on Sunday!!!!).   Now, we are FB posters, I  mean, my hubby and I post a lot – photos and status updates.  Mostly because our family is on there and our immediate family is in NJ and TX and cousins all around the US and in the Philippines.  It’s a way for us to all keep up with each other without having to do mass emails all the time like before.  Now, we also have friends from grammar school and high school that we may not have kept in touch with if it weren’t for FB.  Don’t get me wrong, I’m glad we all found each other and reconnected, but you know, there are some that we’re just not tight with that are we are friends with.  Who knows, they’re probably sick of us and hid us from their timelines, but anyway, I digress.

Is it in bad taste for me  / us to post how proud we are of our children?  I was wondering, maybe someone’s child is having a hard time and they may take our post in a negative way.

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Runner’s Injuries

I haven’t run in a few weeks.  Tell me why I signed up for 2  5ks and one is on SATURDAY?!?!  I thought I had at least 2 weeks still!  Holy Cannoli, Batman!  I do miss running.  I hope I haven’t set myself up for more injuries or making my existing condition worse.  I am not going to try for a PR at this point.  I would just like to finish.

Anywho, seems like I never posted what I have below from 10/5 (starting at Bah Hum Bug!). No changes to my entry though…I still have no updates b/c I haven’t seen the PT yet :(

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Bah Hum Bug!

I finally caught this running bug and now, I have to go back to walking and running, but not when it hurts (but it hurts right away).

I’ve got the right shoes for my running style and gait.

I’ve got proper insoles (SuperFeet).

I’ve got, probably, an incorrect running form.

I’ve got a pain that shoots up my leg…that comes out of nowhere when I’m going up/down stairs…walking…jogging…changing from sitting position to standing.

Apparently, my “soleus muscle is quite angry” at me.

What does this mean?

It means I need to walk more than run.

Stop running as soon as I feel pain.

Once I get approved, I need at least 2 one hour sessions a week with a PT/Sports Med Doc…

It means that the races I had lined up in October and November are no longer feasible.

My KJ Leg

The Race where my soleus became "quite angry" with me.

The Race where my soleus became “quite angry” with me.

Yes, I just called my leg a “Kill Joy.”  More specifically, I’m calling out my Soleus Muscle.  My who-what?  Yeah, that was my reaction too.  This is a muscle around your mid-calf area.

The soleus muscle is found in the back of the leg above the Achilles tendon extending up to the main calf muscle. The soleus is a group of strong muscles which are essential for walking and running. They also help in stabilizing the ankle hence preventing us from falling forward when standing.

It has put a pause in my running and it couldn’t have come at a worse time!

I joined the “No Boundaries 5k Training Running Group” with our local Fleet Feet that just opened.  Our training group, “NoBo” for short, started in May and ended with a 5k race in August.  We would meet 2x/wk and would go out with mentors rain or holy humid hotness or shine.  This running group and crossing that finish line in our Graduation Race in August did it for me, I caught the running bug. I did trigger my mini injury the week of that Graduation Race.  I was too excited and probably ran harder than I should have (it was taper week after all).  I started to feel a pain in my right leg.  I was ok though.  Just some ice and I was fine.

I signed up for 2 more races in September and I was able to run one.  I guess I ran that last one too hard.  I did set a PR though :)  I stretched pre and post race, but all throughout, I kept looking at my Garmin and seeing that I was pacing at under 11 minutes which was miraculous.  I tried to dial it down a bit because I kept thinking that I was going too fast (for me).  I just couldn’t.  I had the adrenalin going and my momentum was just carrying me!   I felt good after the race.  I knew I would need to ice my leg when I got home, but still, I felt great!

What wasn’t a good idea was that I was in the drive-thru line for Steak N Shake for over 30 minutes.   I usually wouldn’t mind that because there were a lot of people and it means they’re making things fresh.  What I didn’t realize was that sitting in my truck (SUV) for that long wasn’t good for my leg at all.  Once I got home and tried to get out, I almost fell because of the excruciating pain I felt.  I was literally hopping on one leg into the house and limping for the next week and half.   I missed the second September race I signed up for because I was still limping, but it was ok b/c it was also my daughters’ birthday party.

I stayed away from running for a week and half and attempted to run with Buddy that Tuesday.  I went 2 tenths of a mile  on a jog and was just done.  I just walked Buddy…no more attempts of running.  I was supposed to run a 5k that Friday, not happening.

I went to Fleet Feet and talked to one of the guys that worked there.  We spoke about and it and he was right in saying it wasn’t a shin splint (this whole time I thought it was).   He said to try to run through the pain, but if it went over a certain threshhold, to stop.  I did just that on Friday night and ended up running 3.19.  I had some pain and so the ice came out again. I guess I could’ve run a 5k afterall.  It would have been  my slowest, but still.

I tried running again a couple of days later…the pain was back.  I finally went to see a Physical Therapist / Sports Medicine Doc.  That’s who told me my “soleus is quite angry” at me.  He  made me run a little on the treadmill and said, “I notice your limping”.  I simply said, “yes, because it hurts!”.

So, I’m supposed to start therapy for at least an hour 2x/wk.  I haven’t heard anything yet.  Maybe my regular dr. hasn’t given him a prescription yet (hasn’t given me one at all).

I’m being stubborn and ran on the treadmill on Monday.  It wasn’t too bad, but I was really going much slower than I usually would…about a 14+ minute pace.  Maybe that should be my pace for awhile.  I only went for 1.85 miles, but still, better than nothing.

I really hope my leg starts to cooperate soon.  There are 3 5ks I want to run in October and November.