Back to School – Summer Style

I finally took a leap and went back to school this summer.  I only have an Associates degree and never finished getting my Bachelors.  I’ve had my professional position and career for almost 16 years so obviously, my employer(s) didn’t / don’t mind.  It is more for self satisfaction.  I can’t get over the fact that I don’t have this one piece of paper that says I have a Bachelors in blah-blah-blah.  Instead, I am going to stress myself out and possibly put myself in debt for said piece of paper.  This isn’t my first attempt…I attempted to go back to school in 2012, but the whole moving process derailed me and then bam!  Time flew on by and here I am, 3 years later, finally here and doing it.

I was overly ambitious at first, taking 3 classes in the summer.  Summer sessions are only 8 weeks in duration so it’s much double time.  I decided to drop one before the deadline because I realized I wouldn’t be able to spend quality time with my girls while they were off if I kept on with the 3 classes.  Just in the 2nd week now and I’m thinking maybe I should have dropped 2 and just stuck to 1!  It’s pretty intense, y’all.  Why?

I (am):


B) haven’t been to school since 2004.

C) now have 3 kids all home for the summer.

D) “single-momming” it for the most part since pDaddy took a job out of state.

E)  still working full time from home.

F) OLD (did I say that already? I’m going senile too, I guess).

G) going back to point “D”.  “single-momming” it is no joke.  I don’t know how you real single moms/miiitary wives handle it…Hubby came home for a weekend after a month and I was overcome with joy and chores for him to do!  ahahahah  Seriously though, I had to add some of his chores (mowing the lawn, etc.) to my already long list PLUS school.   I think I’m a glutton for punishment.

WHY else would I be getting all anxious and stressed?

I am OVERLY analytical by nature.  I mean, it is my profession as well (systems analyst), but throwing multiple choice questions at me has me in an anxiety ridden state.  I end up finding the “correct” answer in at least 2 of the options because I could argue both (or more) sides of said options.  I have been in a position to “think outside of the box” – to find a way to go around the problem/solution.  I have been used to questioning requirements and see if I can find loop holes and faults.  i know how to find a way to “break” something when I have to dual role as a systems analyst and tester.

pDaddy and my parents always said I should have been a lawyer, but as I’m studying Business “Legalese” this semester where in the first 3 chapters, we study different kinds of laws and courts of law, etc…I don’t know.  Even when there is a final answer, I don’t find it finite.  It’s not like Math – where 1+1 = 2 (let’s not start on Common Core now).  I mean really, I like things cut and dry.  Multiple Choice answers make me stressed out and anxious.  At least give me an “if – then” statement or condition or have a viable way to argue my answer choice instead of giving me a red X when I choose the “wrong” one.  UGH. Where’s my wine!?!?!

ANYWHHHAAAYYY…let me get off my school soapbox for a minute and just do some catching up…

I’m debating on whether or not to fully resurrect this blog or create just a whole new one entirely.  I can’t even think of a new site name or new “moniker” so I guess I’m answering my own question and sticking to this for now.

Brief run down on me…

In the past year or so, I’ve:

  • taken a liking to Zumba so I’m also trying to keep that on the schedule whilst adjusting to not having pDaddy working from home.  This means that I can’t get my Zumba on if I am inundated with work-work and/ school-work nor can I go if any of the girls are sick b/c I can’t just leave them with pDaddy anymore.  I feel my inner diva comes out when in Zumba.
  • run the best race I have in a LONG time – injury free too!  Still over 2 minutes slower than my best, but I will take slow over injury! This was also over a month ago :(  Best race in 2 years and I haven’t really run since.  pDaddy took his out of state job shortly (monday after my saturday race) after that.  I should just run in the gym on a treadmill, but that goes in line w/girls not being sick and poor Shrimpie was sick w/a fever for a full week and then almost 2 weeks after that on and off.
  • come into my own in my Bullet Journal.  It’s not the original way, but it works for me and is pretty here and there ;)
  • spent WAY too much on craft / art / stationery supplies.  I don’t even want to calculate.  Nope, not going to happen.
  • slowly been getting into “plannering” and all the inks and planner stamps that come with it.
  • not spent much in the realm of make-up/beauty products *ANGELS sing*…not that I’ve saved tho :( That spending got diverted to craft stuff mentioned above.
  • seen one of the most beautiful places in the world – El Nido, Palawan Philippines when we went to the Philippines back in February for pDaddy’s cousin’s wedding and grandma’s 90th birthday celebration/reunion. Got to also swim with sea turtles which was also pretty amazing!
  • discovered new music.  LOVE “Hot Sardines“.  No shame in my game admitting that I discovered them through the Starbucks app.  Glad the world is finally catching up to “PMJ” and I also love “Us the Duo“.  What an amazingly, talented couple AND she’s Filipina to boot ;)  Holler (wait, do all the cool kids still say that?  totally aged myself again, me thinks).
  • made new friends.
  • gained weight, lost weight, gained weight, lost weight, lather, rinse, repeat.
  • started to get comfortable in my own skin even with the weight fluctuation.  I mean, I wish I still looked like I did back in the early 2000s, but hey, I can sit here and argue, I had 3 kids since then, etc…Fact of the matter is, yes, I do have 3 kids and the last one made my stomach a luxury townhouse  building, but I wouldn’t change it for the world.

A whole slew of other things have been going on as well, but let’s stop there for now.

My KJ Leg

The Race where my soleus became "quite angry" with me.

The Race where my soleus became “quite angry” with me.

Yes, I just called my leg a “Kill Joy.”  More specifically, I’m calling out my Soleus Muscle.  My who-what?  Yeah, that was my reaction too.  This is a muscle around your mid-calf area.

The soleus muscle is found in the back of the leg above the Achilles tendon extending up to the main calf muscle. The soleus is a group of strong muscles which are essential for walking and running. They also help in stabilizing the ankle hence preventing us from falling forward when standing.

It has put a pause in my running and it couldn’t have come at a worse time!

I joined the “No Boundaries 5k Training Running Group” with our local Fleet Feet that just opened.  Our training group, “NoBo” for short, started in May and ended with a 5k race in August.  We would meet 2x/wk and would go out with mentors rain or holy humid hotness or shine.  This running group and crossing that finish line in our Graduation Race in August did it for me, I caught the running bug. I did trigger my mini injury the week of that Graduation Race.  I was too excited and probably ran harder than I should have (it was taper week after all).  I started to feel a pain in my right leg.  I was ok though.  Just some ice and I was fine.

I signed up for 2 more races in September and I was able to run one.  I guess I ran that last one too hard.  I did set a PR though :)  I stretched pre and post race, but all throughout, I kept looking at my Garmin and seeing that I was pacing at under 11 minutes which was miraculous.  I tried to dial it down a bit because I kept thinking that I was going too fast (for me).  I just couldn’t.  I had the adrenalin going and my momentum was just carrying me!   I felt good after the race.  I knew I would need to ice my leg when I got home, but still, I felt great!

What wasn’t a good idea was that I was in the drive-thru line for Steak N Shake for over 30 minutes.   I usually wouldn’t mind that because there were a lot of people and it means they’re making things fresh.  What I didn’t realize was that sitting in my truck (SUV) for that long wasn’t good for my leg at all.  Once I got home and tried to get out, I almost fell because of the excruciating pain I felt.  I was literally hopping on one leg into the house and limping for the next week and half.   I missed the second September race I signed up for because I was still limping, but it was ok b/c it was also my daughters’ birthday party.

I stayed away from running for a week and half and attempted to run with Buddy that Tuesday.  I went 2 tenths of a mile  on a jog and was just done.  I just walked Buddy…no more attempts of running.  I was supposed to run a 5k that Friday, not happening.

I went to Fleet Feet and talked to one of the guys that worked there.  We spoke about and it and he was right in saying it wasn’t a shin splint (this whole time I thought it was).   He said to try to run through the pain, but if it went over a certain threshhold, to stop.  I did just that on Friday night and ended up running 3.19.  I had some pain and so the ice came out again. I guess I could’ve run a 5k afterall.  It would have been  my slowest, but still.

I tried running again a couple of days later…the pain was back.  I finally went to see a Physical Therapist / Sports Medicine Doc.  That’s who told me my “soleus is quite angry” at me.  He  made me run a little on the treadmill and said, “I notice your limping”.  I simply said, “yes, because it hurts!”.

So, I’m supposed to start therapy for at least an hour 2x/wk.  I haven’t heard anything yet.  Maybe my regular dr. hasn’t given him a prescription yet (hasn’t given me one at all).

I’m being stubborn and ran on the treadmill on Monday.  It wasn’t too bad, but I was really going much slower than I usually would…about a 14+ minute pace.  Maybe that should be my pace for awhile.  I only went for 1.85 miles, but still, better than nothing.

I really hope my leg starts to cooperate soon.  There are 3 5ks I want to run in October and November.

Ultimate Reset – Week 2 Day 4

(oops…never posted this from Friday, 02.01.2013)…

So far so good (I say that way too much in my videos). I feel better with no more aches and pains…no more headaches. I still get tired now and then, but I think that’s more due to Shrimpie and her antics – not wanting to nap at the right times, so she falls asleep around 7pm and wakes up at 9pm and then stays up until 2am!

This week is a bit harder than last for some reason with regards to food and cravings. I don’t know if it’s because I’m in full on vegetarian mode or what so no meats and no dairy as well. I find myself missing oatmeal and toast and eggs…Turkey Sandwiches…baked salmon…Terra Chips and yogurt…things like that. I’m not craving chocolate like crazy like I used to, though part of me wants a bite of that Dark Chocolate bar in our pantry. For some reason, I also really want a macaron. Mind you, I never had the French Macarons…just the coconut macaroons, not macarons.

Don’t get me wrong, the food has been good again and I’m getting better at looking ahead and prepping. I just see food on websites or on tv and I’m all “oooohhhh…ahhhhh” like it was some shiny new toy or something. But, hey, I’m halfway there and haven’t strayed. Why start now? Besides, I want the REAL results, not the “well, maybe I would be this or that if I didn’t eat this food or that treat or…”.

Without further ado, some of the food from this week:

Ultimate Reset – Week 1 Review

So I mentioned that I started the Ultimate Reset to cleanse and detoxify my body. I’ve abused it enough – from years of smoking (I quit a while ago, but still), fast food, junk food, fatty foods, sweets, alcohol, caffeine, soda, etc…it was time to make a change. I always felt slow and tired and I needed to kick start my weightloss journey for the year, for life. So, I figured, I could start by detoxifying and starting out with the cleanest canvas possible.

Week 1 ended yesterday and I feel great! Now, not everyday was easy, but you know what was good? The FOOD! Here are some videos/testimonials from me. Just of what I’m feeling and such and…FOOD pics…mmmm…But with all this yummy food = prepping. I need to up my game on that because I feel like I’m in the kitchen almost all day which is not cool because I have my work laptop on the counter and such. I need to do better with looking ahead without getting overwhelmed. That way, I can see some are the same recipes as the night/days before and I can just cut up double the amount so I don’t have to cut again the next day.

Anywho…here goes my Week 1:

Week 1 Day 1 – The beginning of my journey. The food was great, the headaches from caffeine (and sugar?) withdrawal – not so much! Energy level was down, but that wasn’t anything new.

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Week 1 Day 2 – Still had some headaches…always gets worse midday to evening. Still tired a bit and caught a nap when possible.
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Week 1 Day 3 – Aches and pains started. My lower back was sore along with my things and bum…I guess the trunk area? Tired and achy and felt like I was coming down with the flu (like so many right now).
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Week 1 Day 4 – Even MORE achy. It was hard to sleep the night before and this night. I was tired, but had a hard time taking a nap because no position helped relieve my aches – especially my lower back. I refrained from taking any pain relievers and envied my hubby, who was coming down w/a cold and fever, for being able to take some. Also, very cold! Our house is set to 72 and I was freezing! I even bumped it up to 73, but still cold and was with my snuggie.


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(Bottom pic is just veggies prior to veggie stir fry. I can’t believe I forgot to take a pic of the full dinner: stir fry veggies, quinoa, cucumber and tomato salad)!

Week1 Day 5 – Was starting to feel less achy, more energized (but I’ll still nap. I have kids who like to wake up in the middle of the night due to foot pains or leg pains or wanting milk or nightmares or what-have-you, so I will take naps whenever possible – sometimes tired or not…hehehe).

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Week 1 Day 6 – Felt great with still some lower back soreness (I don’t know if that’s ever going to go away, especially with how I’ve been on my feet a lot in the kitchen prepping and such), but afternoon had me FREEZING again! I was bundled up with my hooded sweatshirt (hood on), a snuggie, gloves and fur lined shoes. It was 73 in the house.
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Week 1 Day 7 – Last Day of Week 1! WOW! Already?!?! Down 5.5lbs :) Felt pretty good, lower back pain only after being on my feet a lot. No headaches (stopped around Day 4).

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Today Begins Week 2 aka RELEASE week aka DETOX week. That also means I’m going to be taking some detox supplements along with my alkalanize (powders you dissolve in water). In addition, I begin vegetarian mode. Oh boy, wish me luck!

Any questions, feel free to contact me via twitter/bzmomma or tbb.bzmomma AT gmail DOT com.

Ultimate Reset – Week 1 Day 5

ip5 612So yes, I am on UR – W1D5 – not to be confused with any of my C25K WxDx workouts (did I lose you, ok I’m sorry…done with that).

As part of my health, wellness and fitness journey, I decided to do the Ultimate Reset by BeachBody (yes, once again, it’s that same company that houses P90X, Insanity, Turbofire, Les Mills, etc.). The Ultimate Reset is not like any other “cleansing” program out there because you are not starving and you are not in the bathroom at all hours (then again, week 2 is DETOX week so we shall see). While I can’t totally speak for that second statement, I can say that you are NOT starving. In fact, the meals are pretty big portions AND get you so full. There have been a few times where I have had left overs.

Basically, it’s a 21 day / 3 week program. The first 7 days, you are RECLAIMING your body and are trying to make a clean palette inside. No caffeine, alcohol, tobacco, sugars, red meats, etc. The 2nd week, you are in RELEASE mode – aka DETOX. This phase, hmmm, maybe you’ll be going to the bathroom more often, I don’t know yet. You also will have a full vegetarian diet. The 3rd and last phase you will be REVITALIZING yourself and introducing back some dairy and such. It comes with supplements and a full menu for 21 days complete with recipes, shopping lists, etc. I’m not going to lie, it’s a bit pricey, but I need an overhaul and this is where my decision led me.

I am on Day 5, never starving – unless I’m running late w/prepping my food – and down 4lbs. (I wish I knew how my cholesterol is doing). It’s not easy, that’s for sure, but nothing worth doing or having or what have you, is easy .

Day 1 and 2 had me having headaches from caffeine and sugar withdrawal. Days 3 and 4 had me ALL kinds of achy like I’ve been working out like crazy or I had the flu or something, but you’re not even allowed to workout for 21 days. Your body is trying to restore the normal pH balance and alkalinity in your body so working out is out of the question (as that adds acidic levels). You are allowed to walk and stretch (20 minute brisk walks, light yoga, etc.), but nothing major.

This morning, is Day 5 and I woke up less achy than yesterday even though it took me forever to get comfy and asleep last night b/c my back was SO incredibly sore. I feel a bit refreshed, took my supplements and am ready to get my breakfast on.

Just an FYI, here are some of my meals…

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Wellness and Fitness on the Mind

ellipticalAll weekend, I’ve just been thinking about fitness and what I can do to keep consistent.  Everything from diet to exercise to calorie counting gadgets (BodyBugg, Polar FT40 or sticking to my good ol’ Garmin Forerunner110).  I need something to count my calories while I’m working out without being on a machine (treadmill/elliptical) which is what I’ve been on so I can see the calories.  I need to see the numbers.  I never thought I was a numbers kind of gal, but I guess I am.  Anyway, I’ve been trying to get in the groove to get myself going…I need to lower my cholesterol.  One main ingredient that I didn’t do is go to the gym / workout.  I went Friday (pic on left), but not Saturday or Sunday.

I ate well and healthy Saturday, but not Sunday.  portobellostuffedwithturkeyetcHad much too much wine Saturday night so that just totally nixed the whole eating healthy and well, I’m sure of it.  That pic was leftovers from Saturday all rolled into 1 – ground turkey w/spinach & rosemary stuffed in portobello mushroom cap.  Also had left over veggie fried quinoa (instead of rice) so I just put both that in the cap too.  Recipe inspired by watch_me_shrink and damndeliciious.

So, the scale tells me this morning that I gained weight, again.  I am now at my highest weight ever whilst not carrying a child – although I look like I could be about 6 or 7 months pregnant if I don’t “suck it in” or sit/stand “wrong”.

Part of my weekend research was checking out some pics/recipes of Instagram members and their healthy eats (watch_me_shrink) has some great looking eats and are healthy too!  I also was looking at Beach Body Instructor, Chalene Johnson’s page trying to get inspired…and I was (she’s creator of TurboFire, by the way)..  But, looking at pictures on a phone isn’t going to make all my weight magically disappear nor will it lessen my cholesterol.

I need to get back on TurboFire and/gym mode.  I need to eat better more often than not, not the other way around.  I need to detox/cleanse or something.  So, next on my agenda will be going on the BeachBody Ultimate Reset plan.  21 days on a STRICT diet (Lord, Help me…give me strength) and no working out.  I hope that doesn’t make me lose motivation to work and instead, have such a great outcome that all I want to do is maximize results by working out.  Once that is done, I will go back to gym/TurboFire (I LOVED TurboFire and got good results with it, I just wasn’t consistent).

I am going to try to make myself accountable by either posting here and/Instagram as to my foods, my progress, my ups and downs.  I haven’t shared this website / instagram account with my BeachBody Coach yet and I’m not sure why.  I don’t know if that will help or hinder me. Maybe I don’t want him to see all my past failed attempts at trying to get fit?   Maybe because I don’t want him to judge me?  I don’t think he would, but…I don’t know.   I am friends with him on FB so that should be good enough, right?  I like this part of the world being my “outlet” my “anonymous” account where not too many people I know IRL know about it.  There are a couple, but not too many and I’d like to keep it that way.  Besides, I am friends w/almost everyone I know IRL (and about 3 bloggers) on Facebook anyway.

If you want to find out more about TurboFire or the Ultimate Reset or even P90X, Insanity, etc., you can check my BeachBody website where I am a “coach” – just for formality so I can get discounts.  I haven’t coached anyone – not yet.  My beachbody website is beachbodycoachDOTcom/bzmomma – wordpress isn’t letting me link it for some reason…I have to read into that.

4 Weeks Later

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Pumpkin Cheesecake – aka evil goodness

First of all, HAPPY NEW YEAR!  I do hope everyone had a great holiday season and a fantabulous New Year so far!  We had a great Christmas and New Year full of decorating, baking, cooking and wrapping/opening presents.  I am not ready to let go of Christmas yet.  I can’t bring myself to bring down our tree and decorations, but I just have to keep reminding myself that dust…dust is our enemy.  I am hoping to post recaps of the holidays soon, but today’s post is to update myself on my 4 Week Goal Accountability post.

4 Weeks Ago, I set these goals and by today, I was supposed to be able to say the following, confidently.  Unfortunately, it was a lot harder than I anticipated and our holiday baking and cooking frenzy was no help.  So the only things I have been able to accomplish are crossed out.

By January 10, 2013, I will be able to proudly say I:

  • have worked out at least 4-6x/wk (Turbo/Gym)  – only 2-3x/week.
  • lost 10 lbs – actually gained 4lbs, but it feels like 10.  my cheeks feel chubbier…my belly and thighs feel humungo! :(
  • am able to do 10 push-ups with no knees  YEAH BOSS!  BIG CHECK on this one!
  • am able to do 10 tricep push-ups  – nope…only about 3.
  • lost 2″ from my waist – scared to check, but I probably added 2”.
  • drank 80 oz of water daily By far, the easiest since I love water.
  • can run 1 mile straight – haven’t even tried.
  • can finish CORE 20* (floor work) without stopping – haven’t tried either.
  • limited bad carb in-take – baked goodies messed me up,  big time!
  • increased fruits and veggiesmy body looks for salad…love it!
  • made daily TO DO lists and prioritized  Big CHECK on this…though my “priorities” don’t always get done did.   I need to work on that now.

So, there you have it.  2 steps forward, 200 steps back.  I wish I never tasted good pumpkin cheesecake (until this past Thanksgiving, I didn’t like anything pumpkin).  Once I tasted the (expensive) pumpkin cheesecake,  I decided to try to save money and make one myself and darn it, it turned out great!  I didn’t realize it was so crazy high in calories!  I mean, I knew it was high, I didn’t think 1/12th of a cheesecake could be over 400 calories!

Anyway, I am keeping at this this and if I don’t do some kind of “reset”, by February 7 I will need to cross more things off this list.  I really need to focus and make a change.  My cholesterol needs to go down. I do not want to go on medication if I can help it.  I repeat, I DO NOT want to go on medication.

So, I’ve started to take steps and log my food in and am going to try to burn at least 600 calories at the gym tonight…