She Lives!

Hey Y’all!  Yup, I am here and alive and kicking.  Summer session kicked my bootie, that’s true, but I lived to tell 😉

Lessons Learned:

  • Do not take more than 1 summer class (16 weeks of work in 8 weeks is no joke, y’all).
  • You’ve waited this long to finish, no need to crazy rush through it all!

Actually didn’t take any classes this Fall semester because it is busy season at work.  I need my sanity.  Even MY Momma told me not to.   😉

Quick Recap of what’s been going on, BULLET style:

  • pDaddy is still working out of state, but I was able to visit him for a weekend while Mama and Papa stayed to watch the girls.  That long weekend was something we absolutely needed – even if we missed the girls terribly!
  • Girls and I have all had our birthdays, so I now have a 10 year old, 8 year old and 5 year old.  All of whom ask me for a baby brother almost every single day.
  • I have really gotten into the IG community for planners.  I love that I have like minded people who share the same love (insanity) I have for all things stationery, pens, paper, stamps, crafts, etc.  I’m @bzm0mma2 on there for bullet journal / planner related pics 🙂  That’s all I’ve really been posting lately.  My poor personal IG. @bzm0mma,  has been so neglected.
  • My stamp collection has increased tremendously, though I haven’t used them much lately.  I think I’m more of a stamper-stamper-card maker-scrapbook-stamper, rather than a planner stamper, per se.  I mean, I like using the icons, but not really the words.  I like to practice writing so stamping words defeats that purpose.
  • I have started to collect brush pens, fountain pens, nibs, etc. and am loving teaching myself modern / faux calligraphy and brush lettering.  I love it so much, that laundry piled up out of nowhere.  OOPS!  As long as everyone has clean undies, #amIright?
  • I have started reading Dave Ramsey’s “Total Money Makeover”.  Wow.  I need to put my big girl pants on and get moving.  I would love to have NO debt, including the house!
  • I have also started reading Marie Kondo’s “the life-changing magic of tidying up”.  I haven’t finished reading it because I am afraid…so very afraid.  I think I need to tackle that AFTER the holidays.  Isn’t it crazy that I think I can tackle debt and finances more than getting rid of stuff?  I know I will feel better though and with thoughts of moving to a different state (JUST THOUGHTS) which means totally downsizing our house, I need to get on this…sooner rather than later.

Lesson Learned:

I miss blogging…stay tuned for musings and ramblings…of life happening 🙂

Back to School – Summer Style

I finally took a leap and went back to school this summer.  I only have an Associates degree and never finished getting my Bachelors.  I’ve had my professional position and career for almost 16 years so obviously, my employer(s) didn’t / don’t mind.  It is more for self satisfaction.  I can’t get over the fact that I don’t have this one piece of paper that says I have a Bachelors in blah-blah-blah.  Instead, I am going to stress myself out and possibly put myself in debt for said piece of paper.  This isn’t my first attempt…I attempted to go back to school in 2012, but the whole moving process derailed me and then bam!  Time flew on by and here I am, 3 years later, finally here and doing it.

I was overly ambitious at first, taking 3 classes in the summer.  Summer sessions are only 8 weeks in duration so it’s much double time.  I decided to drop one before the deadline because I realized I wouldn’t be able to spend quality time with my girls while they were off if I kept on with the 3 classes.  Just in the 2nd week now and I’m thinking maybe I should have dropped 2 and just stuck to 1!  It’s pretty intense, y’all.  Why?

I (am):

A) OLD.

B) haven’t been to school since 2004.

C) now have 3 kids all home for the summer.

D) “single-momming” it for the most part since pDaddy took a job out of state.

E)  still working full time from home.

F) OLD (did I say that already? I’m going senile too, I guess).

G) going back to point “D”.  “single-momming” it is no joke.  I don’t know how you real single moms/miiitary wives handle it…Hubby came home for a weekend after a month and I was overcome with joy and chores for him to do!  ahahahah  Seriously though, I had to add some of his chores (mowing the lawn, etc.) to my already long list PLUS school.   I think I’m a glutton for punishment.

WHY else would I be getting all anxious and stressed?

I am OVERLY analytical by nature.  I mean, it is my profession as well (systems analyst), but throwing multiple choice questions at me has me in an anxiety ridden state.  I end up finding the “correct” answer in at least 2 of the options because I could argue both (or more) sides of said options.  I have been in a position to “think outside of the box” – to find a way to go around the problem/solution.  I have been used to questioning requirements and see if I can find loop holes and faults.  i know how to find a way to “break” something when I have to dual role as a systems analyst and tester.

pDaddy and my parents always said I should have been a lawyer, but as I’m studying Business “Legalese” this semester where in the first 3 chapters, we study different kinds of laws and courts of law, etc…I don’t know.  Even when there is a final answer, I don’t find it finite.  It’s not like Math – where 1+1 = 2 (let’s not start on Common Core now).  I mean really, I like things cut and dry.  Multiple Choice answers make me stressed out and anxious.  At least give me an “if – then” statement or condition or have a viable way to argue my answer choice instead of giving me a red X when I choose the “wrong” one.  UGH. Where’s my wine!?!?!

ANYWHHHAAAYYY…let me get off my school soapbox for a minute and just do some catching up…

I’m debating on whether or not to fully resurrect this blog or create just a whole new one entirely.  I can’t even think of a new site name or new “moniker” so I guess I’m answering my own question and sticking to this for now.

Brief run down on me…

In the past year or so, I’ve:

  • taken a liking to Zumba so I’m also trying to keep that on the schedule whilst adjusting to not having pDaddy working from home.  This means that I can’t get my Zumba on if I am inundated with work-work and/ school-work nor can I go if any of the girls are sick b/c I can’t just leave them with pDaddy anymore.  I feel my inner diva comes out when in Zumba.
  • run the best race I have in a LONG time – injury free too!  Still over 2 minutes slower than my best, but I will take slow over injury! This was also over a month ago 😦  Best race in 2 years and I haven’t really run since.  pDaddy took his out of state job shortly (monday after my saturday race) after that.  I should just run in the gym on a treadmill, but that goes in line w/girls not being sick and poor Shrimpie was sick w/a fever for a full week and then almost 2 weeks after that on and off.
  • come into my own in my Bullet Journal.  It’s not the original way, but it works for me and is pretty here and there 😉
  • spent WAY too much on craft / art / stationery supplies.  I don’t even want to calculate.  Nope, not going to happen.
  • slowly been getting into “plannering” and all the inks and planner stamps that come with it.
  • not spent much in the realm of make-up/beauty products *ANGELS sing*…not that I’ve saved tho 😦 That spending got diverted to craft stuff mentioned above.
  • seen one of the most beautiful places in the world – El Nido, Palawan Philippines when we went to the Philippines back in February for pDaddy’s cousin’s wedding and grandma’s 90th birthday celebration/reunion. Got to also swim with sea turtles which was also pretty amazing!
  • discovered new music.  LOVE “Hot Sardines“.  No shame in my game admitting that I discovered them through the Starbucks app.  Glad the world is finally catching up to “PMJ” and I also love “Us the Duo“.  What an amazingly, talented couple AND she’s Filipina to boot 😉  Holler (wait, do all the cool kids still say that?  totally aged myself again, me thinks).
  • made new friends.
  • gained weight, lost weight, gained weight, lost weight, lather, rinse, repeat.
  • started to get comfortable in my own skin even with the weight fluctuation.  I mean, I wish I still looked like I did back in the early 2000s, but hey, I can sit here and argue, I had 3 kids since then, etc…Fact of the matter is, yes, I do have 3 kids and the last one made my stomach a luxury townhouse  building, but I wouldn’t change it for the world.

A whole slew of other things have been going on as well, but let’s stop there for now.

5 months later…

Well, well, well…it’s been forever and a day since I posted. Geez…almost 5 months?!?!? I just was so consumed in everything that I never really got to blog about everything…living in the moment, I guess (plus, laziness and procastinating).  Facebook and Instagram got updated pretty regularly though.

So, what’s been going on these last few months? Well, here it is in bullets:

  • I fell off the healthy wagon.  I gained all my weight back that I lost from when I did the Ultimate Reset.  I am slowly getting back to eating better, but not having much success. I think I need a really structured plan to keep me going.
  • I joined a 5k Training Group in May and am happy to report that I ran my 2nd 5k in August (my first 5k was last year when I was trying to train on my own).  Ran another one 9/14 with a personal best of 34:52.12 11:15/M.  I’m going to work on trying to get faster and also a 10k.  My ultimate running goal is to run a Half Marathon.
  • I started Focus T25 which is a 25 minute daily workout with Shaun T. (Insanity / Hip Hop Abs instructor).  I did well the first few weeks then, of course, started slacking.  I am 2 weeks from being finished so I’m working on doing my best.  I want my shirt dagnabbit.  I’m afraid my results aren’t as great as I wanted them to be because of my poor eating habits (oh summer bbqs and beers)!
  • My parents finally came out to visit us in the middle of the cornfields this summer.
  • Parents watched the girls while hubby and I had a quick getaway to Montego Bay, Jamaica…just the two of us.  It was so weird not having to look for kids or feed kids or put kids to bed.  It allowed us to reconnect and we just chilled all day and night.  ahhhh…take me back!
  • My dad, uncle and cousin got the girls into fishing!
  • We had a few bbqs this summer where we introduced some Filipino dishes to our neighbors / guests (pork bbq stix, lumpia, etc.).
  • Besides my parents, we had hubby’s cousin and my brother and his family come and visit us too 🙂  Was quite a busy and entertaining summer!
  • Went on a few roadtrips this summer both to take our visitors and just for us…Chicago x2, St. Louis and Indianapolis.
  • Our neighborhood has had quite the turnover.  It seems we kicked all the old people out and the ones with younger kids are moving in…which means that our kids are always outdoors playing and it’s great except I always have an eye out for Shrimp.
  • My girls are back to school.  Beans is now in 2nd grade and my little Razz started Kindergarten.  I’m now home alone with 1 kid and it’s weird.  Shrimpie is definitely a lot better without her sisters around.  No hitting, screaming, etc
  • Razz and Shrimp just had their joint birthday party a couple of weekends ago and fun was had by all.  Razz turned 6 and Shrimp turned 3.

 

I think that pretty much sums it all up…I may make more detailed entries on some of these, but in the meantime, here are some pics 🙂

WW: Memorial Day Weekend – 2012

We did absolutely nothing. Well, OK, I didn’t do much. pDaddy shampooed all our carpets…our rooms are brighter now! Woohoo!

While others were out and about swimming, shopping, beaching, we stayed home and grilled and ate and chillaxed in central air as it was in the 90s all weekend (how did I ever live w/o Central Air before???) and then did it all over again. The only time we left the house was to buy stuff to grill, buy some new rugs and carpet runners and grab some Thai food for lunch yesterday. I have to say though, with the heat, we missed our old pool. pDaddy, Beans and I started to joke around and imagine our pool in the backyard and that Beans just took a dip and got all tan already. Poor Razz just woke up from a nap and thought she totally missed out! She was about to cry b/c she couldn’t “see” it and really wanted to swim!

fireworks display We did play w/sparklers and snaps one night. It was the first time the girls ever saw them and played with them. It wasn’t easy to get those back in NJ (no firework sales). I was baffled when I saw a fireworks display INSIDE one of our stores here. I wish we took pictures, but I was in charge and Marco was carrying Shrimp in one arm and had Buddy’s leash on the other hand. Razz was a bit scared at first, but then loved it. Beans was so happy with the whole experience, she asks EVERY DAY and EVERY NIGHT if we can do Sparklers that night. It makes a good bribe – “be good and we will” 🙂

At one point, the girls wanted to dance and do some Hawaiian/Hula dancing. I, in the most pathetic way, attempted to show them. Razz and Shrimpie got into it while Beans sat on the couch swaying back and forth. Shrimpie got into it so much, she kept “kembot-ing” (swaying her hips) so hard she would lose her balance! It was hilarious! She added her hands twisting and it was just the cutest thing! We were laughing so hard and enjoying it so much that we forgot to “get out of the moment” and grab the camera to film her. Then, following conversation then took place:

Me: Shrimpie, you’re TOO cute!
Razz: Cuter than me?!?!?!
Me: You’re ALL cute!
Razz: ESPECIALLY me!

Well then…

hahahahah

I admire these girls for their confidence! I hope it’s something they keep with them forever, but not to the point where they’re conceited…just to the point where they know. Having confidence is not as easy as it seems… 🙂

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Shrimp’s talking a lot more now and it feels like she really added to her vocab this weekend:
“side” or “outside” when she wants to go out
“How doin” or “What doin” for how or what are you doing?
Hi-Fiiii = Hi-Five!
Shhhhoes – especially when she knows it’s time to go somewhere…She’ll start saying SHOOOOES and then proceed to the shoe closet.
Whoa…whoa..WHOOOOAAAA! – said emphatically as she walks backwards and pretend like she’s tripping or falling.
Daddy’s…Mommy’s…etc. when she sees things that she sees us using. She does this for everyone in the house.
Aaah-boy – When talking to Buddy…saying “Good Boy”
Cickle = Circle. When she wants to write (or steal) my pen.
There-i-iiiss = There it is!
Cheeeeeese…well, for cheese. She loves to eat cheese.
Coookieesssss cookies 🙂

Speaking of eating. She’s the pickiest eater out of the three. The big 2, pretty much, eat anything they’re given – always. Shrimp, nope, not even close. Of course when it comes to snacks or cookies or anything “junk”, she’s right there waiting for her fair share and she will make it known that she wants some. Anyway, we’ve resorted to giving her Pediasure just so she gets nutrients she’s missing out on from not eating solids and only just drinking milk. She now has some “mind-game” going on because I originally put the Pediasure in a sippy-cup. If I put that SAME drink in a bottle, even if she’s watching me, she will REFUSE to drink it (kicking and screaming optional…though happens more often than not). If I put bottle contents into her sippy cup, as she watches me, she grabs the sippy right away and drinks it. Maybe she’s ready to give up the bottle too? We tried to give her strawberry milk, but once she saw me pour REGULAR whole milk in her sippy and added strawberry syrup, she was NOT having it. Oh my…

What else? Ah yes, Shrimpie likes taking off her diaper now and will be all Houdini about it. She’ll figure out how to take it off even if she’s got pants on and a onesie…she slips it off somehow and Sunday? SUNDAY?!!! She took it off AFTER pooping! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! Had little dark red/brown stuff all over carpets (color due to Pediasure). I took her up to the shower and Marco got to scrubbing. Good thing he was already planning on shampooing our carpets too.

Razz had some manners issues. I don’t know what happened, but she’s getting kind of bad w/minding her manners and she’s being pushy. Sometimes I feel like I’m talking to a sassy fourTEEN year old instead of four. We are working on it. BIG time. For example, yesterday, Beans asked if she could have an ice pop. I said what color and Beans says blue. Razz says, “I want a pink Ice Pop”. Um, no little girl. You don’t tell me you ASK me if you can have one first. She’s had a few other moments of getting in trouble for being sassy, but I think (hope) she’s realizing why and how to mend it. Other than that, she’s pretty great…loves to read and always helps me with the laundry. She has such a great sense of humor too. Instead of getting all sore/swoll when we joke around w/her, she’ll joke right back!

Beans is getting used to taking naps again and she LOVES it 🙂 It took some getting used to, but playing w/Buddy outside and whatever else, has made her hot and tired enough to nap over the weekend and she’s napping now as well 🙂 She has gotten SO super helpful and even washes dishes! She does whatever is asked of her and moves quickly about it too.

shrimpie beating up her big sistersThe 2 big girls, when together (at a store, etc.) can sometimes act up a storm, but the 2 girls, together with Shrimpie, is AWESOME to watch. They really love Shrimp and try to play with her and make her laugh all the time. They also try to protect her (from herself). I guess Shrimpie knows how much her they care for her and is ALWAYS giving them hugs. She also loves to beat up on them (as seen in this pic). And the great part is, the girls are very tolerable of her! Even Buddy is! I can only hope they are this good with each other later on in life…

Don’t let this innocent look fool you:
look of innocence?  NOT!

I really wanted to plant and work on our little patch of a “garden”, but it was just TOO hot! I didn’t even want to walk around nurseries / home improvement stores to check out the plants and such. It is supposed to cool off this week, so maybe then, I will. I also wanted to go through our storage and get rid of stuff (and make room for more stuff). Mainly, I wanted to give up all of my clothes (pre-pregnancy). I mean seriously, I doubt I will ever wear a size 0, 2 or 4 again. I have a few boxes in storage that I should go wash and sell to our local consignment shops or ship to the Philippines. Too bad the closest cargo shipper is 2 hours away. I tried to schedule a pick up in February and they said they were going to come, but they never did. Let’s hope I get some work done this week while it cools off.

Now, to all those who have given the ultimate sacrifice to service our country, to those have serviced our country and continue to, THANK YOU.

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linky-linky over at Angie’s WW post for this week.


On Thrifting…

BCBGirls SandalsThrifting – The art of buying(selling) used items. Said more eloquently, here’s Wikipedia’s definition:

Thrifting refers to the act of shopping at a thrift store, flea market, garage sale, or a shop of a charitable organization, usually with the intent of finding interesting items at a cheap price.

Do you shop at thrift stores? I know everyone raves at the great finds they’ve come home with and it ranges from clothes/shoes/accessories to housewares to furniture, but I haven’t been that lucky. Then again, I’ve only been to Goodwill 3 times and another local shop once (Saturday, actually).

I went to a store yesterday that mainly sold clothes, shoes and accessories (and some books). They had great selections and saw a lot that I would actually wear, but in the end, I left with a blazer, a lightweight casual jacket and a pair of shoes – that I debated forever. I don’t know if I’ll even wear the shoes…knowing someone else wore them. What if they had some kind of athelete’s foot fungus type thing going? I mean, they are beautiful BCBGirls sandals (pictured above) so I really doubt anyone would wear them w/yuckiness showing out in the open…but, what if they had stinky, sweaty feet?

See, this is why I have a hard time buying second-hand. What if they had some kind of skin rash? What if they had/have pets and the pet had fleas…??? I’m not pretentious, nor am I a hardcore germaphobe, but I guess I just care too much about the previous owner(s). Ok, I’m a little germaphobe-y, but I think it’s more of a mental outlook for me.

Last year, I bought 2 vintage designer clutch bags from eBay. Now, I’m not sure if they’re authentic, even if the seller said they were, but I loved the look of them and the prices were decent. Have I used these bags at all? Nope. Is it because I haven’t had an occasion to wear them too? Partly. The main reason is when I did have somewhere to wear them to, they had a smell to them…one wreaked of smoke and the other just had that “old” smell that I associate w/my grandmother’s closet. I’ve since aired them out and they seem fine and wearable now…BUT, another thing that bugs me besides the previous owners’ possible skin issues or hygienic routines, is the previous owner’s history.

What if the previous owner had financial issues? What if they went broke? What if they had just bad luck overall?

Maybe it’s my Filipino background and that all the superstitious, spiritual legends playback in my head where every object, animate or inanimate, have a life to them – either of their own or from their owner. I have seen many a movie / show where something like an old, antique object brings about luck, good or bad, to the new owners stemming from the old owner. If the old owner had a streak of bad luck and went broke, the new owner would inherit that spirit after taking that antique object home / owning it. So then, new owner gets bad luck too. I’ve even seen an extreme instance where a family is sickly and all die off eventually (dramatic much? Welcome to Filipino Cinema) and something of theirs was picked up by someone new and they all started to get sickly until some spiritual medium was able to tell them to get rid of that object.

Does anyone else think this way? I hope I’m not the only one that’s this kooky.

At this point, all the thrift stuff I’ve purchased have not been used – except for a pair of shorts that still had tags on them and another pair that I washed 3x prior to wearing. Even the baskets that I bought (for $0.25 each!!!) are just sitting in a plastic bag in the closet. I started to clean them w/disinfecting wipes and the color actually changed! I don’t know if it’s because it was SO dirty or because it was Clorox and some bleaching agent could be on those wipes (I don’t know, I never checked). Which brings me to my next point…

What is the post-thrift shopping protocol? How many times should you wash the items before wearing? How many times do you get it dry cleaned? How many times do you wash an item (housewares) or wipe it down (like the baskets)? How many times do you spray disinfectant on shoes or accessories prior to using them?

I love the idea of thrifting and the possibility of saving so much money, but I don’t know how to get over my aversions. Someone needs to help me because look, these are pretty decent finds. I kind of think I paid too much for them (I picture them cheaper if at Goodwill, but Goodwill probably wouldn’t have the same selections), but still not full price. Help me here…aren’t these great finds?

Leopard lined blazer:
Leopard lined blazer

Lightweight Outdoorsy Jacket:
Lightweight jacket

What Else Can I Do?

It seems like every other week (if we’re lucky), one of the girls gets sick and then it just gets passed onto the next. Yesterday, Shrimp gets a fever out of nowhere (again). Last week? Beans had a bit of a cough, but we actually managed to keep it to just her. The week before that? Shrimp had the hives and fever. By the time all is said and done, this household is “sick free” for about 3 days until the cycle starts itself again. I’ve stocked up on Lysol and Clorox wipes. We also invested in an air purifier (yesterday). Let’s hope that lessens the germiness, shall we? I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired…

/end rant

Scatterbrained…

I’ve been posting mostly to Facebook the past few months and, obviously, not here or Twitter. The “status” update there says “What’s on your mind” or something like that. What’s on my mind? Obviously TOO much to post as I went over the character limit:

What’s on my mind? Too many things! Care to step inside? No? Too bad, here it is anyway…I need to just let it out…

1 – Lola being sick (grammie on Mom’s side). She was hospitalized a few weeks ago and stayed there for about a week w/a visit to ICU too. She’s doing better now, but still not fully recovered. She will be 89 this November and we were planning a HUGE party for her 90th next year.

2 – Mum going to the Philippines (aka “PI” for “Philippine Islands”) to be with her. I feel for Mum. She’s got 2 daughters that are pregnant (yes, my sis is pregnant…2 weeks behind me, though I look like I’m 20 weeks ahead of her) and a sick mother. Mum was so torn about going to the Philippines to be w/her Mom and staying here to be be our Mom. We convinced her to go to PI and that we had our husbands, MILs (who are both nurses) and other friends and family. Besides, even if she stayed here, she wouldn’t really be “here”, ya know?

3 – Razz and Beans being sick. My poor girls caught a cough/cold/fever last Thursday and has managed to keep us in for most of Labor Day Weekend (except for when we snuck out to go to Target yesterday). It was scary on Saturday b/c Razz started looking and feeling really weak again and started her little cough – which, from what we learned back in the Spring – triggers her asthma. I didn’t want to be going to the ER again. Back in the Spring, they were in the ER and Razz ended up getting admitted then getting transferred to another hospital with a PICU (pediatric ICU) b/c her oxygen levels weren’t going up no matter how much they gave her. So horrible seeing her struggle with breathing, being so weak and just not being herself. Anyway, their doctor was away until today so I started giving both of them their nebulizer treatment and, thank goodness, it looks like it’s working.

We weren’t planning on staying home this weekend. pDaddy was going to VA for a basketball tournament and we were planning on going to my parents’ on Friday and staying at my sister’s the rest of the weekend. So, I didn’t force pDaddy to get groceries before he left. Yes, he’s actually been doing the groceries b/c I can’t walk much and he doesn’t want me walking much to trigger labor just yet. Good thing my in-laws came to the rescue. They brought us dinner on Friday, slept over, went grocery shopping for us on Saturday and slept over again Saturday night. They left us Sunday morning w/a stocked fridge and pantry and a chocolate cake to boot (MIL was in a baking mood Saturday night).

4 – My last day of work last Friday, but man, did they seriously put me to work the past couple of months. Even on Thursday, I was working so much that I barely got out of my chair and my legs and feet being so swollen were proof of that!

5 – I was also worried about pDaddy going to VA for his tourney and that hurricane named Earl that was hovering about the area.

6 – What to name this lil girl who’s moving around in my belly like she’s her own lil hurricane.

7 – Putting things away / cleaning – AKA Nesting – but I can’t even do much b/c I am SO huge and slow!

8 – Getting the rest of Beans’ school supplies. She starts PreK-4 on Friday…I can’t believe it. My lil girl, who’ve I’ve stayed home with since she was born, is actually going to start school! This Friday is a half day for her, but the rest of her days are full days from 8am to 3pm. Her school supply list isn’t so bad and actually, Mum and my siblings have been buying her stuff when they go out shopping, but I still don’t get why she needs 2 bottles of ketchup!

9 – Beans ACTUALLY starting school on Friday …oh my. Wait, I mentioned that already, right? Still in shock. I think dropping her off at school will send me into such an emotional and hormonal outrage that I’ll end up in labor. lol

10 – Thinking I was going into labor Sunday night (see previous entry).

11 – Hoping and praying, whenever Shrimpie does come, she’s happy and healthy like her sisters 🙂

12 – SLEEP! I miss SLEEP! And I know I’m not even going to get much anytime soon w/baby coming!

13 – How I’m going to juggle 3 kids and 1 being in school!

14 – Having to go back to work. Can’t we just win the lottery already?

15 – Having only a 2 bedroom house with 3 kids. Speaking of lottery…I really do wish we could just win it to get a bigger house AND not work. Did I mention Beans and Razz want a dog? Um, not quite yet my dears. We were supposed to list our house this spring/summer, but our basement renovation took longer than expected (that’s what happens when family does it and just does it on the side) and now, there’s no way in hell we’re going to be able to pack all our crap and move. At least getting our basement done forced us to purge some of crap. In any case, we don’t even know where to move to. pDaddy is set on moving out of state for a cheaper cost of living – which I get. However, I’m more worried b/c I’ll have a newborn and 2 other kiddos and all our family is here – with the exception of pDaddy’s sister and her family. My sister will also be having a little girl in the beginning of October and of course I want to be around to meet my new niece. In addition, who’s going to help us when we need it? Plus, we don’t trust anyone to babysit for us except our moms. How’s that going to work out?

See? Way too much going on in my head!