Week 2 Day 1
Week 2 Day 3
Week 2 Day 1
Week 2 Day 3
All weekend, I’ve just been thinking about fitness and what I can do to keep consistent. Everything from diet to exercise to calorie counting gadgets (BodyBugg, Polar FT40 or sticking to my good ol’ Garmin Forerunner110). I need something to count my calories while I’m working out without being on a machine (treadmill/elliptical) which is what I’ve been on so I can see the calories. I need to see the numbers. I never thought I was a numbers kind of gal, but I guess I am. Anyway, I’ve been trying to get in the groove to get myself going…I need to lower my cholesterol. One main ingredient that I didn’t do is go to the gym / workout. I went Friday (pic on left), but not Saturday or Sunday.
I ate well and healthy Saturday, but not Sunday. Had much too much wine Saturday night so that just totally nixed the whole eating healthy and well, I’m sure of it. That pic was leftovers from Saturday all rolled into 1 – ground turkey w/spinach & rosemary stuffed in portobello mushroom cap. Also had left over veggie fried quinoa (instead of rice) so I just put both that in the cap too. Recipe inspired by watch_me_shrink and damndeliciious.
So, the scale tells me this morning that I gained weight, again. I am now at my highest weight ever whilst not carrying a child – although I look like I could be about 6 or 7 months pregnant if I don’t “suck it in” or sit/stand “wrong”.
Part of my weekend research was checking out some pics/recipes of Instagram members and their healthy eats (watch_me_shrink) has some great looking eats and are healthy too! I also was looking at Beach Body Instructor, Chalene Johnson’s page trying to get inspired…and I was (she’s creator of TurboFire, by the way).. But, looking at pictures on a phone isn’t going to make all my weight magically disappear nor will it lessen my cholesterol.
I need to get back on TurboFire and/gym mode. I need to eat better more often than not, not the other way around. I need to detox/cleanse or something. So, next on my agenda will be going on the BeachBody Ultimate Reset plan. 21 days on a STRICT diet (Lord, Help me…give me strength) and no working out. I hope that doesn’t make me lose motivation to work and instead, have such a great outcome that all I want to do is maximize results by working out. Once that is done, I will go back to gym/TurboFire (I LOVED TurboFire and got good results with it, I just wasn’t consistent).
I am going to try to make myself accountable by either posting here and/Instagram as to my foods, my progress, my ups and downs. I haven’t shared this website / instagram account with my BeachBody Coach yet and I’m not sure why. I don’t know if that will help or hinder me. Maybe I don’t want him to see all my past failed attempts at trying to get fit? Maybe because I don’t want him to judge me? I don’t think he would, but…I don’t know. I am friends with him on FB so that should be good enough, right? I like this part of the world being my “outlet” my “anonymous” account where not too many people I know IRL know about it. There are a couple, but not too many and I’d like to keep it that way. Besides, I am friends w/almost everyone I know IRL (and about 3 bloggers) on Facebook anyway.
If you want to find out more about TurboFire or the Ultimate Reset or even P90X, Insanity, etc., you can check my BeachBody website where I am a “coach” – just for formality so I can get discounts. I haven’t coached anyone – not yet. My beachbody website is beachbodycoachDOTcom/bzmomma – wordpress isn’t letting me link it for some reason…I have to read into that.
First of all, HAPPY NEW YEAR! I do hope everyone had a great holiday season and a fantabulous New Year so far! We had a great Christmas and New Year full of decorating, baking, cooking and wrapping/opening presents. I am not ready to let go of Christmas yet. I can’t bring myself to bring down our tree and decorations, but I just have to keep reminding myself that dust…dust is our enemy. I am hoping to post recaps of the holidays soon, but today’s post is to update myself on my 4 Week Goal Accountability post.
4 Weeks Ago, I set these goals and by today, I was supposed to be able to say the following, confidently. Unfortunately, it was a lot harder than I anticipated and our holiday baking and cooking frenzy was no help. So the only things I have been able to accomplish are crossed out.
By January 10, 2013, I will be able to proudly say I:
So, there you have it. 2 steps forward, 200 steps back. I wish I never tasted good pumpkin cheesecake (until this past Thanksgiving, I didn’t like anything pumpkin). Once I tasted the (expensive) pumpkin cheesecake, I decided to try to save money and make one myself and darn it, it turned out great! I didn’t realize it was so crazy high in calories! I mean, I knew it was high, I didn’t think 1/12th of a cheesecake could be over 400 calories!
Anyway, I am keeping at this this and if I don’t do some kind of “reset”, by February 7 I will need to cross more things off this list. I really need to focus and make a change. My cholesterol needs to go down. I do not want to go on medication if I can help it. I repeat, I DO NOT want to go on medication.
So, I’ve started to take steps and log my food in myfitnesspal.com and am going to try to burn at least 600 calories at the gym tonight…
Finally did it. Week 5 Day 3 (aka the 20 minute run) is elusive no more!
I slept early last night…well, I tried. I fell asleep around 11:30 only to wake up an hour later then got back to sleep around 1-ish. Ever since I wrote my post yesterday w/that challenge to myself, I’ve been psyching myself out to do this 20 minute run and I must’ve subconciously been thinking about waking up early to do it b/c I actually woke up before my alarm (5:30…my alarm’s set for 5:50). Of course, I kept going back to sleep so I actually didn’t get out of the door until almost 7:15 and OFF I finally went!
Beautiful morning – cool and breezy…partly cloudy in the low 70s. Perfect.
I surprised myself and did relatively ok with the whole thing. It was the last 5 or 6 minutes that hurt because I had to go up-hill for about 3 minutes before going back down. Plus, my right sock was slipping off and so I was getting my first blister (not counting one from years ago 08? 09?).
I’m glad I challenged myself. I’m glad I got out there. It’s 8am. I feel great. I need to just eat well and keep up this momentum and that should keep me on the bandwagon again 🙂
According to my Garmin (not counting warm up and cool down), here’s my Week 5 Day 3 breakdown!
Distance: 1.7 miles
Avg. Heartrate: 174
Avg. Heartrate: 130
Cooldown (stopped too early):
Distance: .09 (I was walking back and forth the same block. Does GPS get all messed up?)
Avg. Heartrate: 151
I have attempted Week 5 at least 3, no wait, 4 times now. Each time, I wus out on W5D3 because it requires you to run 20 minutes straight, something I have never done.
Instead of me getting psyched up to push myself and test my boundaries, I get scared. Scared of hurting my shins again…scared of NOT making the full 20 minutes and feeling like a failure. The longest I’ve ever run straight was probably 13 minutes when I ran that 5k in May. So instead of getting out there and running, I lay in bed and think I should get up and go already, but in reality? I lay there and think about it more than I put an effort to doing it. I ran Week 5 Days 1 and 2 again 2 weeks ago when we had guests over. My last run was 2 Fridays ago. That’s right, no runs (or any form of exercise) at all last week. I don’t know if it’s because my body just wanted to rest after hosting guests, but I think it had more to do w/the heat and being scared.
So, I haven’t lost any weight, in fact, I think I gained a few pounds (especially not doing anything last week). I should be at my ideal body, or close to it by now, IF I just stuck to working out and eating better. Why, oh why do I always fall off the darn wagon??? At least I haven’t gained too much weight back. I am going to try this darn 20 minute run this week. Although, I may need to start Week 5 all over again so as to not shock my body/legs, but by golly, I will try the 20 minutes straight. I mean, what is my problem??? If my shins start to hurt, then fine, I’ll slow down or start walking it. I just need to move!
I keep thinking back to that 5k in May and feeling so accomplished…totally opposite of what I’ve been feeling lately. I need to get on it and just do it. I need a boost in confidence…a better, more fit, body so I can feel confident. I’m not trying to be a size 2 again, I’m not. I just want to feel healthy and not so flabby and floppy and sloppy and blah.
I will do the 20 minutes this week (holiday week and all…weekend getaway and all). I will do it. This is my weekly challenge. I have too many cute summer clothes I want to wear and if I’m looking and feeling flabby, no amount of cuteness is going to do anything to make me feel good or look good.
I woke up Saturday morning still unsure of myself…of my legs. As of the night before, and even that morning while picking up my runner’s bib and registering myself and Beans (she would do the kid’s 1/4 mile race), I was about to switch from 5k runner status to 1 mile walker. Then, I started to think about how disappointed I would be in myself…How could I not at least try? What’s the worst that could happen? They walkie the golf cart guy over to pick me up if I can’t go anymore? At least I tried, right? I mean, I wouldn’t be the only disappointed in myself…How about pDaddy and the girls? They even made a sign Friday night to cheer me/Beans on. So, off I went and just picked up my bib and stayed as 5k Runner. Took some Tylenol, did LOTS of stretching and put on that Icy Hot Beans and I picked up at the grocery as we also picked up our breakfast.
Still freaking out, but determined to do it, I managed to keep myself calm and collected. pDaddy, Razz and Shrimp got there a few minutes before Beans’ race. Big Girl did well, but then stopped too quickly and couldn’t catch her breath…she started to panic and kept saying she waned to throw up. I got her to calm down and tried to get her to walk it off before my run started. She finally caught her breath, but still felt queasy. I felt bad leaving her, but I had to get to the starting line. pDaddy took over as nurse to Beans and watching over all 3. I couldn’t stop thinking of Beans and how she felt. I kept hoping she just got better and hoping that I wouldn’t feel that way at the end of my race…I didn’t want to discourage her anymore.
So, off to the starting line and off I went. I didn’t know if I wanted to walk a bit first or not, but just hit START on my new Garmin (thanks to an early Mother’s Day gift from pDaddy). I didn’t realize it had to locate satellites again so it took a couple of minutes before it kicked in and I was already “running”. I didn’t realize I just kept going. I felt like Forrest Gump and just kept going and going and going and next thing I heard was the time keeper at mile marker 1. I clocked in at 1 mile at 11 minutes exactly, according to the timekeeper girl. 11 minutes! WHAT? WHO? ME? WHAT?
It was definitely a lot easier to run in a group and I kept pace with a few of the runners, whether they knew it or not. Next thing you know, I was nearing the end of the 1st lap and saw pDaddy and the girls holding up the sign they made. I took off the headset from my right ear as I neared them and heard the girls yelling “GOOOOOOOOOOOO MOOOMMMYYY! GO! GO MOMMY GO!” What an INCREDIBLE feeling that was…seeing your family cheer you on and looking so proud of you. I smiled a HUGE smile and waved to them and then kept on trucking…
I had to stop about 3 or 4 times after that…Once for about 3 minutes and the others for about a minute or so. The 3 minute stop, I just had to really catch my breath (I really need to learn some breathing techniques)…but then I started to feel my shins getting tight / sore. I also felt the heat from that Icy Hot kick in (never really felt the “icy” at all). I didn’t want to get all tight and walk the rest of the way so I kept pushing and pushing and even said it out loud “PUUUUUSH”. I didn’t realize that I was actually “pushing” through hills…I expected myself to walk them, but I actually didn’t! Ok, maybe a few of them, I walked a few steps…and when I say “hill”, nothing major, but definite change in elevation. The last tenth or quarter of a mile I saw the end in sight going around the bend. I was ready to walk, but I pushed it again. And again, I saw pDaddy and the girls cheering me on, holding up the sign and pDaddy w/the camera. They were a few feet from the finish line, but they were close enough to see me cross it.
As I was about to cross, I looked up dumbfounded. My snazzy new watch was telling me that I had a great pace (for me), but I thought it was “off” (I don’t know, don’t ask). I crossed the finish line to see 35:40.
I’m still trying to process it…Remember, I just wanted to finish in less than 45!!! I remember I couldn’t “jog” for 30 seconds without feeling like passing out when I got on a treadmill in February.
I can’t sum up in words of how happy and proud I was of myself…That’s such a RARE feeling that I was speechless. I was also so happy that my family was there to cheer me on. I was so happy when I saw pDaddy close to the finish line looking so proud of me. This whole week, I gave off the vibe that I was giving up b/c of my shins and he had to hear me complain all week long. I’m sure he was thrilled that I would be done being nervous nellie (but he’ll still hear me complain about sore legs), but really, I saw him happy for me and proud and that’s another feeling I wish I could bottle up! Seeing him helped me stop myself from walking the finish…
I still can’t believe I did it and with a better time than I expected. I can’t believe my shins cooperated. I can’t believe how good it feels to cross that finish line. I can’t believe how much seeing your loved ones can really encourage you and keep you going…
All that and it was just the mid-point of a wonderful Mother’s Day Weekend.
Thanks to my cheerleaders…no pic of my main man though 😦 Sorry pDaddy 😦
PS – That Icy Hot can get SUPER HOT! After eating, we went home…I did more stretching and hit the shower. I thought I washed it all off, but apparently not…my legs were burning! I wanted to nap, but was so uncomfy…felt like a super sunburn on my legs. I must have come down from my adrenalin rush b/c somehow, I, eventually, slept through it. I don’t know how long it took for it to wear off, but it was gone by the time I woke up. phew…
PPS – Official race results = 35:43.3… I’ll still take it!
Ok, so for now, I think I’m on track w/the goals I set in my previous post, “Weak Workout Week”. I have started to wake up earlier and make it to the gym earlier – as long as there was no torrential rain and crazy thunderstorms and lightning. I think I will make 30 miles this month from running and/adding bike / elliptical work. I signed up for a 5k which is on Saturday. I’m crazy, I know. I just finished Week 4 today so I have no idea what’s going to happen Saturday. I picture myself walking, jogging, walking, jogging – lather, rinse and repeat. I’m hoping I just make it under 45 minutes.I tried to see where I was and how far I could go on Saturday so, I went for an outdoor run. Let me just say, I’ve been training mostly on the treadmill. I’ve only done an outdoor “run” once in the past few months and it was just to test out a new pair of sneakers, (the NIKE LUNARACERS (which I LOVE, by the way, though they might be too snug on my wide feet if I had to run for a while ).
Anyway, I’m proud of myself because I did NOT trip or fall or break or scratch anything. I did, however, have a HUGE FACEPALM moment. I don’t (yet) have a training watch, but I do have the Nike+ system. So, I charged my iPod while I was having coffee and chatting w/Beans before heading out. I didn’t want to bring my phone b/c I didn’t want to hold anything. I couldn’t find my trusty Swatch watch so I left the house and off I went. I realized I never callibrated my Nike+ for running so I set it up to calibrate, got the music running and off I went. After the quarter mile callibration, I checked to make sure it was ok. Proceeded to go back on my run…then…SILENCE.
Turns out I didn’t push down hard enough for it to charge *facepalm* I had no watch, no phone and so I just had to keep “running” in silence. Have no idea what time I left the house so I don’t know how long it took me to do 3.2 miles. I’m glad I clocked the miles before so I knew how far I had to go, but DURRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR….There goes my baseline. But hey! I finished the 3.2 miles…I did do a lot of walking though… 😦
So, the only think I didn’t follow through with yet is the weightloss goal. I think I’ll stick with 20 in 5 months. I really need to be more accountable for my eating though. Like this past weekend? We had ribs for dinner on Friday and those leftovers were lunch Saturday. Then, we had pizza for dinner Saturday. Sunday, I made some sushi rolls (HELLO RICE!!!) and then we had some Doritos Locos Tacos or Tacos Locos for dinner. I don’t regret ANY of that one bit because I loves me some food! BUT!!! I know I can’t keep doing that anymore…at least not all in one weekend.